He balked and doubted and questioned and second guessed God, and still didn't get in the way of God's greater purposes.
It made me happy to know that God uses people like that. People who are fearful and doubting. People who are under-qualified for the job at hand.
It made me happy because it made me realize that God can use me.
And then, in church today we read John 3:30. "He must become greater; I must become less."
Nobody doubted for an instant that it was God going to battle against the vast army of the Midianites. Gideon and his 300 men against more Midianites than could be counted.
Nobody counted it Gideon's victory.
He must increase, I must decrease. More of Him, less of me.
"What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ--the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith. I want to know Christ and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, to attain to the resurrection from the dead."